the questions.

the dark clouds will never cover the sun.

the questions they pose. the doubts they have.

will you wait on? or would you move forward?

do you love her? enough to wait for her?

to be there when she is down.

to fight for her when she is no longer able.

she told me. she could still fight on.

and i. what did i do?

i stood aside, as they tormented her. cutting her heart over and over.

what rights do i have? to her soul, her heart, her body?

i will fight on. till the day she says. i dont need you anymore.

i am still here. waiting for you.

is she like the rest? the girls that came and went in my life.

i do not know. my body doesnt know. my soul does.

it says. she is. wait for her. be there for her. love her.

it is sad. when many doubts arise. questions from others.

she could imagine me with another girl.

sadly, i cant fathom myself with another.

going to the pool today. i thought she was there with me.

the sweet chats. the clearing of doubts we had.

removing her fear. i stood here. all this while.

sensing me feeling down. my parents had raised the subject.

it takes time for them to understand you they said.

especially when the things you do, have no sense at all.

but what you do. was never for yourself.

thats why, you could never leave someone in pain alone.

but the way you are. is unique.

it took us 19 years to understand you, my son.

it would take them longer. the problem is.

are you waiting? if you are. you will succeed.

now we understand, why prophets told us to dote on you.

everything weighs heavily on your heart.

the past. the mistakes. the things you do.

you never try to hurt anyone. but everyone sees it otherwise.

you left the group. not for yourself. but for others. and for us.

but everyone sees it as you leaving for yourself. deserting the rest.

the past year, has been a fruitful one. though it was harsh.

and i miss them dearly. i miss the encouragements. the criticisms.

i try and try. to make everyone understand.

but now i know. the fact is that i do not need them to.

i only need her, and my family. to understand.

as long as they do, i'll be able to move forward.

i broke down. the day when my parents questioned my ways. last year.

they did not understand. they thought i had wanted it.

now it is over. they understand and trust me.

they never question my ways anymore. they know what im doing.

so here i am. still waiting.

the status doesnt bother me. because i know i am true to her.

even if she turned ugly. even if she had changed her heart.

when she had her doubts. i still wouldnt change mine.

i want her life to be beautiful.

i am not perfect, not even close to it.

i miss her terribly. i wanted to cuddle her last night.

and say. everything will be fine.

she cried. in public. and at home.

i promised her, i'll be there. when the tears flow.

it is sad. when my tears had been taken away.

and others have to say, patrick. u're still a flirt.

especially from many. from more.

the day everything ended.

today. tonight. tomorrow.

there'll be no more. i love her.

it is funny. how the fate twisted. over such a simple matter.

that we were to be seperated.

no more gigglings in the middle of movies.

no more scant glances at each other's eyes.

no more hand holding to walk down the streets.

no more getting lost, being led by her in marina.

no more breakfast, from her to me, from me to her.

so many other things all incomplete.

the puzzles. out of place.

then it rained.

it was as though the sky was crying for me.

the distant thunders that rumbled. as i stared up the sky.

as though sensing the vow i made.

it was crying in my place.

i wouldnt let go. if it were me.

but this time, it isnt about me. the decision is with her.

i don't wish to force her. she cant take the commitment.

it is afterall a status. but i dont feel good about breaking up.

but. in the end. i have to accept it.

i failed to protect her.

and she is tearing inside.

why though. am i still alive?

when it hurts so much inside, and i no longer feel anth in the chest.

why though, am i still breathing?

she's my air, and she's no longer mine.

why? am i still able to move.

when she is part of me. physically and mentally.

she thinks. it is her fault. the guilt.

i wont allow her to bear. not for me.

she thinks she is not good. and that im sick of her.

find me then, another fine thing to happen in my 20 years of life.

she was to be the finest thing to happen.

i had so many things in mind. so many wishes to fulfill.

to brighten up her days, and once again. bring her to life. to love.

i took her away from him.

i wont stop fighting. even if i were to be battered and bruised.

i will walk the death valleys with her. but. she's giving up.

its like trying to save someone bent on dying.

just take my hand once again.

if you would like to dance under the stars.

i would be standing just alittle up ahead.

waiting for you. always ahead. always waiting.

dreams.

-.- siannnnnn.

after being woken from some dumb series of dreams.

i swear. series of dreams.

since like. 3 days ago, every night. im having the same type of dreams.

different situations though.

went to school. for some dumb 1-3pm lesson.

and guess who i saw people.

wynne sia. -.- she looks so much skinnier.

even though that dumb girl is nice to talk to.

but. i swear she has an evil aura around her.

she'll make fun of u the slightest chance she have.

and currently, she is amused im still in poly.

i hate u lah wynne.

and she's in nursing. *bats eyelids innocently*

i think people are gonna die.

HAHAHAHA.

and she just said.

3,2,1! [b][u]Wynnee[/u][/b] is my name.(: says:
i have the passion to save ppl lives.

so people are indeed gonna die.

HAHAHA.

well. met up with baby today.

she is guai lan today. swear.

we cant help but tease each other most of the time.

then after that. i went home.

slept throughout the day.

its damn song lah. -.- for once.

i shall no longer be bothered.

i am here.

i am here. to hold the odds.

i will be there. to keep you safe.

i will lend you my ears. my shoulders. just for u.

there was a pride i couldnt put down.

to surrender my heart. the very essence of me.

something i couldnt do. yet u made me give up the defenses.

here it is. my soul. my love. take it.

nurture it if u must. destroy it if u want.

it is yours to keep, yours to love.

i saw her tears. streaking down the face.

i sensed her pain. disappointment afflicted to others.

i felt the ache. somewhere within me.

i would hold her. i would love her.

if she trusts me with her heart.

and give me her soul.

the ringing pain of split love. sometimes. occurs to me.

as though i do not have her to myself.

time and again, i look into her eyes.

she would retract from me.

i am the toy of the gods.

it took me time and again, to prove my love to her.

i understand her pain. i understand her past.

thus. sadly. that is what pains me most.

we would hold our hands tight. just to see the dawn breaking.

i would have my arms around her waist. to let her stay.

my lips on hers. to taste.

the whispers in her ears. just to say.

i love you more than i can bear.

i want you more than anything precious.

once and once again.

the poundish head.

ahhhhhhhhhh.

-.- thats how i begin the post.

i swear lah. something's gonna be going wrong somewhere in my body.

went over to calvin's house. -.- CCK mrt.

then change LRT to Fajar. really fuggin far ar.

for the first time in my life. i was so excited to do soldering sia.

*pulls out the clip*

at first i was thinking of decorating the clip. like wordings. and little hearts.

after doing a couple of wordings. i found out that the fugging thing doesnt stick on.

so i went like *flick my finger*

*the word flies around calvin's room*

-_- sorry lah calvin for dirtying your house.

so i tried circling the clip with the words.

the tricky part was, the longer u took to do the thing.

the hotter the metal gets. -.- so u could imagine me wincing whilst holding to the clip.

i swear, his mum thought i was having sex with his son.

so did his sister most probably, cause i was making some noises.

and most probably -.-' so did his gf think im gay.(she was on the fone with him)

but the effect was worth it lah, i swear.

something unique at least. -.-v

dongdong really is an engineer. though he hates to admit it.

then his mum was so kind sia. to provide me with a mattress, pillow and blanket.

then went around CCK to stroll abit with calvin and raymond.

amusing sia. i didnt know singapore got such a wulu place.

then slept at 4am.

woke up next morning at 9? i swear.

the first time i felt smth squeezing in my chest.

i think calvin's sister bites -.-' he forbids me to go near her. HAHAHA.

though i did chat with her for awhile.

then went to bath, only to be amazed.

*picks up two shampoo looking containers*

1st one reads: shower foam.

2nd one reads: shower foam.

*spots a third brownish bottle*

it reads: 'toilet bowl cleaner.'

*stands in the toilet dazing at the three bottles for 5 minutes*

-.- i was sleepy. so i was really gonna wash my hair with the 3rd bottle.

amazed lah. no shampoo. ended up having a funny hair day.

took the cab to school with the both of them.

then ran out of cash to have lunch. omg -.-'

i was happy. even though i spent a night in his house. then not having food for the rest of the day. thinking bout how she would smile at the clip makes me feel contented.

no choice. had to call my brother to transfer me cash. i was feeling giddy at that time alr.

then as i was on the way to clementi. -.- i found out that eating alone wld look stupid.

so i rang sista up. only to find that she was also on the way home.

so we had dinner.

and i found out about her duckie LOL.

i swear, amusing guy. -.-'

went home. had alittle tiff with her.

i guess im not really up to the task of expressing how i feel.

though im not siding anyone. i just want them to get together again.

but then again, it is their freedom. i really should stop being a busybody.

it saddens me somehow, when she is tormented by stress.

and that i had to add to her pressure, to spoil her day.

though some words she said had cut me.

but once again i just shrugged it off, cause she didnt mean it.

even if she did, i guess i fucking deserved it.

the lj lj lj lj lj day.

just like my title today. really is ljx5 day.

i went to school today. arriving at clementi approximately 8.45am.

to pick baby up and head to school together.

and guess what people.

upon arriving at school, alighting from the bus.

i noticed the bus stop was VERY empty.

i saw a friend, and she sort of gave me a questioning look as i waved to her.

now that she just asked me, i know why.

fuck lah. today no school.

something about BCE. Business Continuity Exercise.

SCREW SARS!

u made me come to school for nothing.

u friggin lj syndrome.

so i went to canteen 2. to eat. and then head home. amazing lah.

then went to swim. i didnt know sec sch girls have training programs.

flooded lah practically flooded.

then, headed off to JP to get a clip for baby.

she complained of being giddy again.

now that freaked me out. and i sort of ran around JP getting the stuff.

Popcorn chicken, incase she was dizzy from hunger.

Opera Dive, to raise her mood alittle.(she's horny now, due to the humid weather)

and went back to NP.

it was kinda a long ride there. fuggin traffic.

i was bombarding her phone with messages on the way.

then arriving at Cheers, i sat there and waited for around 15 minutes.

before finally deciding to call her at 7pm sharp.

to find out she was already in clementi.

worried sick lah worried. was wondering why she didnt reply.

thought she fainted somewhere in the toilet or something.

then i headed back to clementi. over to hers.

just to pass her the stuff i bought.

thank god she's fine though.

guess i worried for nothing.

dilly dally.

ahhhhh.

im bored. thus im here to blog.

its 1.59AM. and yet i cant fall asleep.

i've undertaken the job of 'admin' from my brother. to work for my dad.

which sort of irritates me and makes me glad at the same time.

thanks to the sudden calls from customers. i've to bring a slip of paper around.

and now, to my love life XD

which excites me everytime. i see her.

poor thing lah she.

having eye swellings yet again.

the weather sucks. i think thats why.

fuggin sun so big.

we had potato salad.

she wanted it. and she didnt finish it. *scowls*

it makes me wonder big time.

whether i really am such a great boyfriend.

i love her. thats 1 fact.

i don't know where this will go though. thats the 2nd.

i want her. though not for some makeout session. 3rd.

i'm not her type. -.- sadly.

hahahaha. though it doesnt bother me much.

another thing. however. is the fact i want to groom myself more.

because! thats what i've always wanted and dreamed of.

a nice body. yes lah. -.- just the body.

another point is for the discipline. and NS.*scowls x2*

she has a lot of males lah. after her ass. -.- i swear.

though i'm once again not really bothered.

but there would be some tom dick harry who would suddenly msg her saying.

dick says: 'hi, i want to make out with you.'

that infuriates me. not the fact that she's mine.

but the fact is that they would like to know her. just to makeout.

the fugged day.

wah lan. i swear lah. this is how the post should start.

'wah lan.'

had breakfast with baby today.

then headed over to marina square.

where we went back to get the roxy bag we saw yesterday.

she loves it.

then upon arriving at marina square.(note: we're both sweating.)

u know why lah sayang.

then we went to subway.(note: where a bunch of judes were staring at her.)

she had her lunch. and then off to quiksilver.

and guess what.

the bag is gone.

SOLD.

DISAPPEARED.

3 cheers of hip hip hurray!

i swear. i was gonna do a 'crouching lj du lan face.

the first salesgirl we asked had no idea how the bag looks like.

unreliable. so we thought we could ask the 2nd salesgirl.

then it was out of stock.

really no more.

ji tao horny.

then baby and me went like. 'ok, now what.'

today wasnt a good day for her.

she had bad hair day. but when she threatened to go saloon to cut it.

somehow. it went to the way she likes it.

amusing lah ppl. then next.

her eyes turned sore. just when we said we wanted to go tangs.

amazing lah ppl. then next.

she had a aching pain in her tummy area.

worried me for awhile.

so after that, we went to puma. ripcurl. everywhere.

to look for a suitable bag.

but in the end.

she bought a top instead.

omg lah. baby. ur wardrobe is bursting alr.

though i swear. she looks damn sexy.

in just a plain shorts, and a black top.

which she keeps saying she looks fat in.

sayang. u have curves lah.

curves that are concave do not mean u are fat.

i had to drag a salesgirl to convince her.

dongdong says: 'do u think she looks fat?'

salesgirl says: 'no. swear. no. never.'

ok i exaggerated the salesgirl part abit.

she has thighs that arent even touching each other!

WTF!?

though i have to admit. she is getting broader.

still. she would look good.

and damn. she does look good.

thus, which made me wanna do some self improvising.

as in. to start working out.

before she starts noticing im fat and dumps me. >=(

she likes. tall. tanned. handsome. playboy type.

-.- which im yearning to grow into.

though im short. pale. ugly. and positively. not playboy. LOL.

the day ended swift.

and i am now missing her greatly.

though she is now being a pigu. -.-

for not replying to me on msn.

BRENDA NG!

YOUR A PIG. BUT I LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP.

the suffering.

my heart goes out to those that suffered the earthquake.

my hope flows to those who are below the rubble, waiting for help.

the pain is shared, from the families who lost someone dear.

and last of all.

while you still have it. cherish it.

i look around.

muahahaha. yes people im back from the dead.

as my baby would claim. 'your blog is dying lah sayang.'

oh yessss. i heard from the teacher that the lectures.labs.

are almost OVER.

which means. i am supposed to not come sch most of the time next week.

however though, i had quite a fun time there.

despite the early rousing from my dreams.(which are usually sweet)

and the long journey from home to school.(please god damn 185)

then the walk to my block.(i have to admit. journey's shorter than baby)

alot of things came to realization the other day.

i had to stop the tears from flowing.

im afraid of departure. my mother.

she looked so weary when she spoke to me.

then it had dawned on me. i had never been a fillial son.

though they had said before. it was i who brought the family together.

i was rather desolated. from my family in the past.

and them, from one another.

my brother had never been home.

my parents were constantly arguing, with knives and choppers.

my sister was also living in her own world.

i swear, the one of the many memories of me to her were.

my dad had went into her room. and given her $50.

to ask her to go out to play.(in my time.$50 was alot).

around 1990s.

guess her reaction. she had cried.

and continued peering into her book as though her life depended on it.

we werent a wealthy family at that time.

it didnt help. with the constant arguements among my parents.

i had stood there. transfixed. apparently not knowing what to do.

they had constantly quarrelled about divorce.

the only bond between the family.

my brother would desert the family.

my sister would marry.

and me. who would i be with?

those days were past. and im now older. stronger.

and i want to protect things that are important.

you may have the world. but you shall not take this fragment from me.

muahahaha enough of emo-ing about the past.

though im 100% confirmed baby would nag at me.

baby says: 'emo again?!'

and then.

'EmO rIghT?!'

'eeeuuuuu eMoO!'

it is silly. but these little things she do. always tugs me back onto earth.

into the present. looking into the future.

i love her.

more than i could imagine.

alittle less than what my heart could hold.

and it would grow straight into it.

nevertheless. i'll be by her side.

it is how it is. and i have no means of changing how i feel.

and then! on to what happened on Tuesday!

We went to Tangs.

which I could practically imagine how she looked like working there.

and then i saw it.

i fugging saw it.

at benefit's counter. though i dont mention what.

im not really biased. just not used to seeing stuff like that.

she got her pay.

and we set off to Far East.

i kinda miss the days we shop there lah.

BEANIE!

when the fug are u going to be free again?!

she wanted to get a long skirt.

i swear. once again imagination came into play.

and i could imagine her wearing a long skirt.

with those kinda silky material.

somehow.

it was sexy.

and it somehow turned me XD.

so i was kinda looking forward for it.

instead. baby. like her usual self.

picked out 2 dresses instead.

one which she liked.

another which we coincidentally saw.

i swear. the 2nd dress. was. mouthwatering lah guys.

jealous RIGHT! im her bf! XD

*happily jumps around*

i dunno why -.-' but i think im starting to get used to guys staring at her ass.

and guys coming to flirt on her.

then. she. despite herself. overspent her money.

i was happy to get her a beanie though.

she liked it alot too. probably because i said she looked like an elf in it.

the more i look at things. the more adorable she seemed.

it was ever changing though.

she could be haughty. constant bursts of violence sometimes.

yet.

she could be adorable, loving and caring most of the time.

that made it somehow balanced.

i swear. if she wore the dress and beanie.

she would be a killer.

well at least to me. though she kept claiming it would look weird in public.

i got one similar beanie myself. to prepare for NS.(scowls)

then on wednesday.

i picked her up from school.

then. off to Holland Village.

Coldrock.

OMG. it is nice.

and.

its fattening.

i swore, the nutrition facts on the cup went like.

Calories: dont bother knowing.

Saturated Fat: who cares?

even after 2 days of the sinful indulgence.

i could still feel the ice cream in me.

then we went to crystal jade.

to eat xiao long bao. her craving lah her craving.

and we all know when her craving comes. what does it mean.

despite her protests of not going crystal jade just to eat dim sum.

she gave in at last. due to me dragging her from the front.

be glad lah be glad. i was broke already on that day.

i still didnt mind spending money to make her happy.

in the end however. i was full from the meal.

though i knew it wouldnt last -.-'.

then off we went, to somewhere near her house.

then around night time. i starved.

zzzz brother, his girlfriend was abroad.

my parents were asleep.

sleepy.

how do u stop a man from pestering you?

answer: stare at his crotch and laugh.

what do man consider a 7 course meal?

answer: a hotdog and a 6 pack of beer.

how do you lose 190 pounds of ugly fat instantly?

answer: get a divorce with him.

sian. i was bored. so i began reading on some online jokes.

i admit la i admit. i'm bored.

my teacher was screaming.

'OMG i finally get to see u.'

yes people. his the dude who pronounces global as 'grobral'.

as expected. they've already started on lab 3.

and i knew nothing bout the labs sia. absolutely nothing.

at one point. i was stuck.

so.

*raise hand*

dongdong says: 'teacher, lai.'

*teacher approaches dongdong*

dongdong says: 'how to set nat inside and outside.'

forgive me. its been 8 months since i configured a switch.

teacher explains.

dongdong listens.

teacher once again pronounces words with a L as R.

then he blamed me for not coming for the previous labs.

then for some weird reason.

he was stroking my arm.

yes people. he was stroking it up and down.

and sort of grabbing kind of stroke.

-.-

and for the rest of the lesson. i didnt bother to raise my hand alr.

yay. dongdong is smart. say yes.

as expected. baby is sick. again.

dunno what she doing sia nowadays. see lah see lah.

bio guys somemore. grow thing on eye alr. >=D

anyways, she has sensitive eyes. though ive no reason why.

i've only heard of sensitive skin and sensitive nose.

does that mean she can never watch porn -.-"?

so yea. now here i am. rotting in the library.

while my friend is laughing beside me at some dumb movie.

nua lah nua. lj lesson 1-3.

yet i've no choice but to attend. the blardee lecturer said she would give out tips today.

i dont think i'll be listening much.

my eyes can barely open already.

and then. once again. many thanks to xinyi. XD

for giving me some company and a listening ear.

again. the rantings.

I try and try again. to stop the yearn for the touch.

Living this life had been a torture. had it not been for her.

Over and over, i would dream of her. the nightmares banished.

Vanishing the pain i had, over the very mistakes i had made.

Everytime i try to close this circle. more and more i would spin.

Being myself isnt hard. but this cycle is like a neverending spiral.
Repeating and always coming. i feel lost and insecured.
Every explanation given, which i understand.
Nevertheless, i need to hold her tight. to tell her she is mine.
Dire to faults, i try and try again.
Anything i have, just take them all. so that i would never feel this pain again.

i run the circle.

im puzzled.

then. i begun running the circle.

040508!

the day began. with loads of love.

well. more like a silly thought on my side.

at 12.15am. i was on the bus to clementi.

i had rushed to macdonald's. then to westmall's.

just to get her a little of something.

the opera diva which she wasnt able to have. cause i was unwell.

and three blue roses. from the mall.

and at 11am. sharp ok sharp. i reached there at 11am.

i had my best-est breakfast. woot. im amused.(amazed actually)

please tell me she is amazing.

cause i found her so. hahahaha.

i think she's hinting for me to go on a diet.

look at the amount of breakfast. -.- hmm.

though i had to constantly pinch myself to make sure i wasnt dreaming.

RIGHT SAYANG?!

however, she said im the only one to ever taste her breakfast.

yay. im honored. really. *bats eyelids*

and i know what u wanna say sayang.

but. my reply will be. nooooo i never!

and after the lovely breakfast.

yes lah. the singapore zoo.

please. tell me im amazing.

it consisted of alot of things i dislike.

the smell, the sun, the shit. stuff that starts with an S.

i wouldnt go to the zoo ever. even if someone forced a knife to my throat.

amazing lah. what this girl can make me do. though i was the one who suggested it.

i wanted it to be something special at least. >=D

yes people. thats the zoo map.

she wiped her sweat on her arms with it.

lovely glam gf. HAHAHAHA.

though i swear i didnt mind. her sticky or not.

no wonder she wasnt sticky one bit.

i swear. the map was a foggy piece by the end of the day.

yes lah people. the 6 pac turtle.

brenda says: 'omg see got 6 pac! *hint hint*'

dongdong says: 'thats the friggin shell lah.'

brenda says: 'nooooo. 6 pac!'

dongdong says: '. . . . . .'

*it goes on and on and on*

HAHAHAHA. she said it looks dead though.

the uber big tortoise.

fark la. its the biggest i ever seen. i thought it was a statue.

until she tugged my shirt and point.

it weighs 300+ kg btw.

the very cute otters. omg.

they travelled in packs of 5 though.

and there was this mother otter dragging her kids.

into the pool. -.- like suffocating it.

the funny looking bird. (note: its half aslp)
i swear. it looks like me when i daze in class.

muahaha! us!

i swear. i got to stop making those kinda faces when i take pictures.

i swear she looks pretty here.

no people. its not cause she covered her face.

its her hair lah her hair.

and she looks kinda secretive here.

yes lah people once again. its pizza.

remember dynamite?! this is the cousin.

the pizza tok gong-ly hard. really. i nearly broke my teeth.

and guess what. once again. sayang picked what to eat.

and guess what! kfc was beginning to seem friendly. like very.

so the day ended beautifully. i swear.

i enjoyed myself. i hope she has.

though it was nothing special.

but no matter where. or what. she never fails to bring a smile.

040408!

kzy,beanie,dongdong,brenda.

and after the episode at NYDC.

comes the pain of the aftermath.

the chilli shitting day! YAY!

i woke up.

brush teeth.

bath.

and then.

brother says: 'eh dongdong ah. i bought u mee-siam for breakfast.'

dongdong says: 'orh ok.'

dongdong approaches the table.

*sits*

*eats*

halfway through the meal.

omfg.

whats this feeling.

whats this rumbling sound i hear from my stomach.

omg.

i think i remember.

yesterday's dynamite pizza.

omfg.

*rushes to the toilet*

please. dear god. lets this be smooth and painless.

instead.

*pi li piak lak pi li piak lak*

whats this weird burning sensation at my asshole?

its alien @.@.

omg.

w t f!?

*wipes*

WTF WHY GOT BLOOD!?

*cries*

*continues eating mee-siam*

lovely brother. lovely timing. lovely mee-siam.

so in the end. i left house at 9.30am.

then. we forgo k lunch.

and had pizza hut instead.

guess what.

my beloved girlfriend.

popped this question suddenly in the middle of the meal.

brenda says: 'so are we still going k lunch later?'

dongdong looks at beanie.

beanie looks at dongdong.

dongdong and beanie looks at brenda.

*starts burst out laughing*

that cheered me up.

-.- cause i was feeling slightly moody.

lj tummy ache.

lj burning sensation at my asshole.

and lj waitress who forgot our orders.

and ignored us for approximately 5 minutes.

i swear. her eyes were avoiding us.

then it was off to big bookshop.

lovely sista said i needed pri 1 book.

lovely girlfren said i needed pri 5 assessment book.

lovely sista. lovely girlfriend.

yay.

then i saw this interesting book on chinese religion.

its amusing. i can still remember everything i learnt.

i can even recite verses. or sutras in my heart.

funny thing. i guess my fate with these kinda stuff isnt up.

so we rotted at kfc. waiting for kzy to appear later.

then it was off to holland V!

kzy's first statement of the day.

kzy says: 'eh today the weather very cold.'

*looks at beanie*

she had her jacket on.

HAHAHAHA.

again.

once we arrived at Holland V.

overhead bridge.

kzy strikes again.

kzy says: 'eh. SP people damn scared cold right.'

HAHAHAHAHA.

i swear la i swear.

then it was off to starbucks~

we couldnt find any seats.

and i felt like shit.

no. literally. didnt know whether i wanted to shit or not.

my stomach didnt give me a nature call's sign.

nor did i bother giving it the. 'let me sit on the toilet bowl till it comes.'

so i felt high, out of place, hot, annoyed, happy, irritated, horny.

all at the same time.

then. while beanie and sayang was fiddling with their laptops.

beanie was drawing a penis on her program.

i swear.

that.

is.

a.

fugging.

penis.

sista. deprived la sista.

HAHAHAHA.

it was beach in color. human skin color.

and it had weird lumps. and a pointy spot.

i figured it was a penis.

-.- confirm lah confirm. even kzy agrees with me.

after i was done with the iced signature chocolate.

i felt like i was ready to puke, pee and shit at the same time.

i was literally full. to the max. full.

but instead of resting and waiting to digest.

we ran off to Crystal Jade.

we ordered the funny chicken.

sweet and sour pork/chicken. i really have no idea.

and the beansprout salty thing.

and xiao long bao.

it was nice. really.

but i think the sweet and sour chicken/pork had some needs on improvement.

-.- it seemed alittle too large. and. too much pepper. too little meat.

me and kzy stuffed beanie and sayang with loads of food.

until when kzy tried to put a piece of sweet/sour pork on my bowl.

he toppled my drink.

and straight into the funny chicken.

i stunned. for at least 3 seconds.

before realizing the chicken was drowning.

literally drowning.

-.- zhanyu ah zhanyu.

*flares eyes, nosrils together*

dont lah dont.

i had some fun being the clown at crystal jade though.

im glad they all laughed. -.-'

im happy lah. when i see people happy.

im a weird guy.

but im that way.

and then! aft crystal jade.

dongdong whines: 'i wanna puke,pee,shit.'

all at the same time please.

reminds me of the, pee,brush teeth and wash hair combo.

i wanted to take a cab. i really wasnt feeling well.

so i really was sweating like fug.

though after awhile.

i felt fine again. and we slacked at the playground.

i managed to convince beanie's mother to let her to stay with us at the playground.

WEE! JERALDINE WEE!

HAHAHAHA.

sista. just admit it la. u would wish that im ur blood brother.

i dote on u yes? XD

though we left.

after some dramatic displays of splits and dances.

by the 3 of them.

then. after sending sayang home.

kzy and me sat somewhere to have a chat.

it was nice really. to know more about them.

im just surprised. how everyone misunderstands one another so easily.

relationships are fragile.

so is life.

so im cherishing this as much as i can.

cherishing her.

loving her.

i'll try my bestest.though there is no such word LOL.

she is finding it hard to express herself.

she had forgotten how to love.

how to care.

how to trust.

i love her.

all the same.

im shitting chilli seeds.

yay im back! back to blog la.

beloved didnt want me to wait for her. so she wants me to blog. -.- loving right this bf.

HAHAHAHAHA.

30th of Apr was alright.

guess what.

she ended class at 7.

and as for me. i was waiting for a bus to clementi since say. 6.20pm.

the bus arrived at 6.45pm.

i waited till very horny i swear. i paced around the bus stop. tapping my foot.

worst thing was. traffic jam on the highway to clementi.

another thing to make me horny for the day.

-.- swear la swear.

then. i arrived at clementi bus interchange.

guess what.

sayang took 184. despite trying to wait for 154,52. she skipped 184 once.

then she boarded 184. with 154 behind. SMART RIGHT!?

so in the end. she still had to take the liberty of walking.

no choice la =x fated. HAHAHA. sayang. it was fats shredding day.

anyway. she didnt wanted me to wait. so i think she got kind of agitated for the bus oso.

AND THEN!

tragic thing happened really.

bus 7 departed while she was on 184 whining.

then bus 7 departed AGAIN. when she was crossing the junctions towards bus interchange.

yes la. double horny attack.

so. ON TO NYDC!

NOTE NOTE NOTE NOTE NOTE. DANGER!

she ordered. Dynamite(it sounds dangerous, explosive. and worse.spicy)

the description said. It is so hot and spicy! our staff itself loves it! with FRESH CHILLIsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

note the long long chilli word.

i ordered. the 3 Amigos(it sounds friendly, warm. and delicious)

our food arrived.

i swear. the pizza looked so damn innocent. with nothing more than afew chopped chillis on it.

then.

the first bite.

brenda says: '. . . . . .'

dongdong says: 'wassa matter?'

*brenda takes drink and gulps*

brenda says: 'wtf spicy.'

dongdong notices something. her face just turned red la. tomato color.

dongdong geh kiang.

dongdong says: 'i'll eat urs. u take mine.'

*pours cheese and tabasco sauce on the pizza*

i swear. it made the pizza a whole lot more edible.

*removes the cheese layer.*

WTF IS UP WITH THIS HUNDRED CHILLI SEEDS?

and so.

i tried to finish all of it. mama taught me dont waste food la.

so basically. my face turned red. my throat burnt.

i swear. if i could give out smoke. i would be a steaming train.

REALLY A VERY HORNY DAY.

i tried to open my mouth to talk.

but once oxygen got into my mouth.

the pain got worse.

and then. after dinner.

my tummy was struggling.

like literally struggling.

stomach acids versus chilli.

then to my dismay.

sayang was laughing -.-.

i love you lah baby. literally wanna lub u deep deep LOL.