well.

i think of everything, so badly.
i cant fall asleep.
the time i have alone, is enough torture.
i need someone badly.
i need someone to hug to sleep.

from the skies.

i will come at you from the sky,
just to break your fall.
watch me.

that girl sitting over there.

i'm so afraid of walking towards you.

even gazing at u makes my blood burn with desire.
these walls i build around me.
instantly gives way, without a fight.
and all it takes is for someone to whisper your name.
i'm trying that hard, to not fall for u again.
it is taking me all in my power now.
to stop myself from screaming your name, and that ievoluoy.
but. can i really trust you with my heart again?

the moon with the stars.

last night, u just came back.

the dream i had. brought the feelings back.

in times like this, i wish never to be woken.

because then and there.

the decision for the seperation, was not what i had in mind.

overwhelmed by thoughts, i would look up the sky.

and hope that u're looking at the same stars as me tonight.

because even the moon, which seems so lonely.

have stars to share his plight.

i have alot of things i wish to tell u.

but i do not know where to start.

tonight.

im heading off.
pray for me peeps.
whether or not i deserve it.

even if i had..

i would run across half of singapore just to see if you were okay.
please do not doubt if i loved you.
the joy u brought to my life. i couldnt describe.
u had me waiting, my whole life. just for that one night.
and i still can never forget.
and the reply that i wanted to give.
was more than just a yes.

back to where i belong.

back to where you are.
into the cuddle where both of us are.
where we promised love.
where we left our smiles and soul.
you'd hide into my cuddle laughing.
when and where you were blushing.
the look of ur face is the sweetest.
we would look at one another.
and be glad that we have, one another.
the night we joined as one.

dying, dead, dead-ded.

STUPID outfield.
STUPID headache.
DEAD patrick.

a little too not over you.

clubbing with the boys tomorrow.
hopefully. i wont feel like a dork.
pictures up soon. (:
as soon as i get them. zzzz.

aren't memories supposed to fade?
what's wrong with my heart?
shake it off, let it go.
didn't think it'd be this hard.

sigh.

so afraid of letting you into my head again.

i'm now

spending the rest of my life starting tomorrow.
rebuilding the pieces i've broken yesterday.

i finally know.

i finally know what my dream was about.
and it isnt about u. nor me.
its about my family.
and now i am wishing. it was me instead.
the results came.
he has 3 years or so left.

someone. help me. i really wanna cry now.
why does bad things always happen on the 24th?

engulfed.

being here. brings back alot.
more than overwhelming.
perhaps its all about the shared memories.
i realize that in life, nothing is constant.
only change is.
i'll embrace today, like it will be everyday.
it was your choice.
but the burden we'll share.
i thank you. for everything u've given.
and for everything i had.

just a little flavour. (:

a picture. with lots of flavour.

anyhow. yes people. im back!
no. i havent been blogging much.
yes. i've been lazy.
well. i'm sort of back to blog. before i've to go back to army on monday.
i've been doing nothing much basically.
though, somehow i'm rather enjoying the way my life is.
i've been out and around, with a couple of friends.
and alot has been happening.
well, not exactly to me. but around me.

yes. i'm still in love with my girl.
and no. sorry to disappoint the guys in the world. we're still together.
HAHAHA.
i keep wanting to do things, eg. movies, sentosa.
but i think i'm not really that disciplined to wake up that early in the morning.
besides. i am a rather homely boy.
or so i think, it depends on the mood.
and the company.
well. basically anything with her is fine.
i dont really care nor mind.
and -.-' with a twinge of guilt, i havent been spending much time with my parents.
but. i dont think they really care.
'as long as i'm happy.'
thats what they always say.

sometimes. somethings. are more important and greater than life itself.

another day spent.

caught benjamin buttons with baby and her sister.
well. nothing special really.
other than the fact that it sort of felt family-ish.
which felt wrong.
HAHAHAHA.
i mean. it looks wrong to me.
but oh well.

a really great movie i have to say.
about benjamin buttons.
the way he looked at life and endured the passing of his loved ones.
how he sacrificed for his long love.
its kinda saddening actually.
somehow, a way or another. i wished i would have a love story like his.

well. i think i'm gonna go off to vivocity now.
its baby's birthday tomorrow. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!
but i won't be here.
though i wish with all my heart i could be.
and yes. the night thingy wasnt possible.
because u were asleep when we were supposed to be at vivo. =/
i wasn't abit disappointed at all though.
because i knew u were tired.
so yup. another time then.
it isn't just another day. you and i both know.
it is the day where u came alone into this world.
then u met me. (:



good things don't last.
feelings do.
so. its all about you now.

stagnant.

this feeling. is turning stagnant.
its never moving forward.
you and i both know.
my heart is constantly aching.
certainly clouded in the mist.
i am confused, with the days coming by.
you arent opening up, as you said you would.
i am tired of trying, as i said long ago.
the relationship we had talked about, was never something like that.
we both promised of a faraway land, that we would become closer.
but not further apart.
but someone please tell me, whats this feeling that i'm having.
things arent going the right way. with irritating things you said.
i'm constantly disappointed, especially in the nights.

you're never there. neither am i always here.
there really is nothing to hide.
but i've given up the thought to talk to you about this.
because you and i both know. you would never change.

ADNAMA [:

everything feels so right now.
here and there. little things i'm beginning to see.
despite u whining in the dead of the night. *frowns*
but u just want to spend that little extra time with me.
i will hold and treasure u dearly.
slowly and slowly.
perhaps in time to come, we would be even more loving.
within our grasp we would cherish together.
out of our reach we would achieve together.
i'm beginning to see. what u really mean to me.

and right now. u're dead asleep in my house.
though u kicked me awake 1 hour ago just to go to vivo.
HAHAHAHA.

PS: *gives u a sampan for 2nd month anniversary*
HAHAHAHA. u and i both know what it means.

(:

the journey back was nice and cozy.
somehow, i wished the bus would never arrive.
the day that would come would be on the 4th.
the little surprise that is held in mind.
made with love, and sealed within our hearts.
you will make that day worthwhile, with just a smile.
everything i do now, is all worthwhile.

PS: ADNAMA

the sunshine smile.

roused awoken as i open my eyes.
i smell the fragrance of ur hair, so close to mine.
as the warmth of ur body touches me.
i feel the love just pounding within my heart.
even as im typing this post now from far apart.
i miss u now, with every word i write.

PS:ADNAMA

tehkexin.

miss tehkexin.
u lost a friend. who did not understand u.
but u'll have us. for these obstacles ahead of u.
we might not be able to do much, but we'll try.
we might not always be there, but we'll run to u whenever we can.
we might not be able to change the world for u, but we'll change for u.
there might not be enough hands to hold u through these troubles, so we'll lend u our hands.
i'll protect the people around me.