the dark clouds will never cover the sun.
the questions they pose. the doubts they have.
will you wait on? or would you move forward?
do you love her? enough to wait for her?
to be there when she is down.
to fight for her when she is no longer able.
she told me. she could still fight on.
and i. what did i do?
i stood aside, as they tormented her. cutting her heart over and over.
what rights do i have? to her soul, her heart, her body?
i will fight on. till the day she says. i dont need you anymore.
i am still here. waiting for you.
is she like the rest? the girls that came and went in my life.
i do not know. my body doesnt know. my soul does.
it says. she is. wait for her. be there for her. love her.
it is sad. when many doubts arise. questions from others.
she could imagine me with another girl.
sadly, i cant fathom myself with another.
going to the pool today. i thought she was there with me.
the sweet chats. the clearing of doubts we had.
removing her fear. i stood here. all this while.
sensing me feeling down. my parents had raised the subject.
it takes time for them to understand you they said.
especially when the things you do, have no sense at all.
but what you do. was never for yourself.
thats why, you could never leave someone in pain alone.
but the way you are. is unique.
it took us 19 years to understand you, my son.
it would take them longer. the problem is.
are you waiting? if you are. you will succeed.
now we understand, why prophets told us to dote on you.
everything weighs heavily on your heart.
the past. the mistakes. the things you do.
you never try to hurt anyone. but everyone sees it otherwise.
you left the group. not for yourself. but for others. and for us.
but everyone sees it as you leaving for yourself. deserting the rest.
the past year, has been a fruitful one. though it was harsh.
and i miss them dearly. i miss the encouragements. the criticisms.
i try and try. to make everyone understand.
but now i know. the fact is that i do not need them to.
i only need her, and my family. to understand.
as long as they do, i'll be able to move forward.
i broke down. the day when my parents questioned my ways. last year.
they did not understand. they thought i had wanted it.
now it is over. they understand and trust me.
they never question my ways anymore. they know what im doing.
so here i am. still waiting.
the status doesnt bother me. because i know i am true to her.
even if she turned ugly. even if she had changed her heart.
when she had her doubts. i still wouldnt change mine.
i want her life to be beautiful.
i am not perfect, not even close to it.
i miss her terribly. i wanted to cuddle her last night.
and say. everything will be fine.
she cried. in public. and at home.
i promised her, i'll be there. when the tears flow.
it is sad. when my tears had been taken away.
and others have to say, patrick. u're still a flirt.
especially from many. from more.
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