beanie terrorizes the kitchen.

beanie terrorizes the kitchen.




THE BEAN-ISH VEGGIE




THE DONG FLOAT

the world.

the world shall be against us, then again.

the world would be nothing without you.

once again, everybody would stop me. from leaving this cycle.

then again, they all claim to know. what we share and have.

the precious few, who gives us the blessings.

are but a number of those, who understands what i want.

everybody would whine, and throw insults at me. like pebbles to the sea, it would mean nothing. not to me.

though what i keep precious to me, is but a fragment of happiness i yearn to have.

she would not be happy. i should stop trying.

it could end that way, for my shoulders are broad enough to take what obstacles brought forth.

but, it is hers that are tiny. memories, pain, friendship are what matters to her.

thus i would stop. once again, and hold that tiny fragment to myself.

love wouldnt be enough alone, if i wanted something more.

to me, it was the journey that is important. not the destination.

but she does not understand, the things i want to share. the memories i want to create. those wounds of hers that i wish to tend. protect is not an easy word. and comes at a hefty price which i am willing to pay.

the little rantings that i hear, are but flies buzzing at my ears. but to her, its like the screamings of the world.

the world i had given up on, because i know what has become important to me.

the world betrayed me, when i was protective of it.

yet, i remain protective of it. i do not blame nobody. i do not hate anyone. truely.

i've given up on having the world, to this tiny fragment of it.

however, id laugh at the sound of brotherhood. of what friends truely are.

that they would be there for me, yet they werent.

not when i was down, not when i was wounded. the tears i shed for them, received no return.

like the rivers flowing into the sea, it was but a natural minor thing.

she was there, to listen to me rant. hear me scream. that alone made me grateful.

the pain she was inflicted on, seems to be caused by me.

im beginning to tire out, of what the world has in store for her. her heart is unable to take it. and i shall stop putting it in.

im not going back to where i came from. the naive world i lived in, where everybody was a true friend.

they would say to me, 'you're a brother to me.'

then i would fight to the death, of whoever harms them. to protect them. from the things to come.

the obstacles given, i'd take for them. the warnings that come, things i shouldnt say, i'd warn them.

but then again, i'd laugh at the memories of daggers in my back.

i'd wince at the sight of her sad, i'd cry at the thoughts of her in pain.

but who would ever know? for it was the God's buffoonery they'd wish to place on me.

i have a gut feeling they want me to overcome all this. so that i would change, at a hefty price.

to get what matters to me, is but a minor thing. but to have what we share in common, is but the ultimate thing.

things which i did not wish to know, are placed into my head. in fact, there was nothing i'd wish to know in store for me in the future. i am complicated. not simple. so hard as i try to be. nobody would understand.

nobody would come close to understanding, i am but the mimosa. retracting to touch. shy to one. but oblivious to many.

a bad bad day.

i swear lah i swear. today wasnt a good day. at all. at all i say. yes people. everything went wrong. EVERYTHING.

i woke up with soreeeee thighs this morning, never mind about that. i came online. laid down on my bed comfortablyyyyy i swear. then my right eye started tear-ring. no apparent reason really -.-. i told brenda, and she laughed it off.

dongdong *thinks* i'll kill her someday. like real soon.

anyway, i wanted to go swim. so i had my lousy breakfast, which was noodles. maggi mee -.-.

i fell asleep on the couch for awhile(note: i set alarm at 3pm.)

then i over slept till 4.30pm. only to wake up to see it rain. FUGGIN SKYJUICE.

so, swimming was out of the question, and went back to sleep. XD love me lah love me.

woke up at 6pm, to get ready to go over bukit batok.(note: 7pm must be there.)

*brings my mp3.*

*turns it on*

*tries to select music folder*

*presses SOFTLY*

*hears a crack*

and now. the buttons cant use -.-.

sooo there goes my mp3.

it was ok lah. to me. until bwenda called me,

bwenda says: 'DONGDONG!'

dongdong says: 'simi lah simi.'

bwenda says: 'MY FRIENDSTER GOT HACKED!!!'

dongdong pauses for awhile: '. . . . . .'

bwenda says: 'im feeling all giddy.'

dongdong once again pauses: '. . . . . . . . . .'

so yea that was how the conversation went.

please do tell me friendster getting hacked is a big big big big deal.(note: i think my mentality is either too dumb or too old.) so basically, i told her to create another. AND OFF I WENT TO TEMPLE.

only to find out, some rumors from someone i dont talk to, dont know existed until once again i was reminded of his name. congrats lah dongdong.

bwenda says: 'dongdong.'

dongdong says: 'bwenda.'

NO LAH IT DIDNT WENT LIKE THAT

dongdong replies: 'what?'

bwenda says: *censored*

dongdong says: ' @.@" '

btw, there was this rumor going on, that she seduced me. hurray! and there was this thing about me being 21 years old, is unable to hang out with a 17 years old. some bastard called me a pervert. god. then my parents must be fucked up as well, because they're married and they are 6 years apart.

bwenda says: 'me? seduce u?'

dongdong kept quiet.

bwenda says: 'YOU?!?'

and again bwenda says: 'EU!?'

and it went on and on to 'EUXZSXZXS!?'

-.- tell me if she kiam pa anot.

so yea, that bastard. note: truely a bastard. assured me that he didnt say shit about me on the phone.(note: i somehow got his number.) so basically he SWORE and said that. he fuggin swore.

then i went back to msn, only to get concrete evidence. then he came online.

bastard: 'lemme explain.'

dongdong *thinks* explain lj.

bastard says: 'im fucked up.'

dongdong *thinks again* yea i know, u're a classic example.

bastard says: 'i assumed. it has nothing to do with xinyi.'

dongdong *thinks again again* knn u assume ur bird lah.

what a low life, i swear. he doesnt know me, doesnt know brenda and dont contact with xinyi anymore. tell me. tell me people. what does this kinda people deserve? he was xinyi's ex btw. apparently angry with me for having her? he did try to woo her while i was with her. showered her with presents, concern. so basically, he doesnt know me. assumed. and blog stalked everyone. btw. he did something lousy and fugged up. like telling the whole world he was toying with her while they were together. and now he tells us he feels sad for her. kind dude.

and he apologised when i asked him to. wheres the pride in him man. and he lies without brains.

im gonna fucking hate him. all my life. dude, do go grab a life. u're a classic example of a fugged up dude. not that i mind, nor do i care. but dont step on others toes for no apparent reason man.

ps. i removed his name already. thanks

on bwenda's request

7 habits/quirks/facts about yourself.

1. i daze when im tired/thinking.
2. i play with my earlobs when im nervous/thinking.
3. i loveeee to be the clown.
4. im tired of everyday life.
5. i stopped pretending.
6. im still waiting to stargaze.
7. i stay this way as long as it is.

the days without the sun.

so basically. that was what happened at work. -.- please forgive the lousy art. im using a mouse on a friggin bed. for what its worth, and the outcome XD im happy with what im doing. at least im earning it lah, be glad be glad.

my dad though, said i did a good job(note: cleaning and scrubbing and cleaning and scrubbing. and alittle painting.)

-.- he said i painted well. (note: it was only the 2nd floor pillarsss which counted up to 50.)

he said i learn fast. (note: my mum kept laughing at home about how i worked around, im abit niang lah no choice).

he said i finally not scared getting myself dirty. (note: like i have a choice, my dad needs someone, and i need money).

so that was how today was. like the last day. for the friggin bungalow. the owner was pleased though(note: some big shot from NP, lucky me.)

and gave us another job.(note: its cleaning and painting the EXTERIOR EXTERIOR bungalow, the friggin walls outside.)

i should be happy though, cause my dad got another project.(note: my dad included me into the 'workers list' cause i sorta click very well with that owner and her maid. i dno why, they say im phillipine-ish.)

YYESSSSS LAH LAST DAY. @#$#@!@#. u really dunno how frustrated i am. -.- friggin dad, and workers. and owner. and maid. soon im gonna hate the world. Conversations went like this.

dongdong says: 'so what should i do?(note: in hokkien)

dad says: scrub the floor, clean the windows which is dirty by paint.

dongdong says: 'ok.'

*scrubs for 5 mins*

dad yells: 'dongdong ah! bring the brush and stuff up to me!'

dongdong yells back: 'OK'

*another 15 mins later*

dad yells: 'dongdong ah! owner call u!'

dongdong yells back: 'OK!'

owner says: 'could u help me shift this BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG table by urself to the 3rd storey?'

dongdong's face. OMFG LAH WTF CCB!? T.T""""?!?!??!

*after shifting the table*

dongdong *pant pant pant*

*moves back to scrubbing*

dad yells again: 'DONGDONG AH! HELP ME BRING WATER UP!'

dongdong yells: 'orh...'

*at the end of the day*

dad says: 'why clean so long? dunno how to clean?'

dongdong says: '. . . . . . . .'

GOD LAH HOW MUCH I SUFFER THERE!

at the end of the last day! YAY. i went out wif the girls+jassen to chevron. yesss lah. sing. my thighs(note: the inside.) was throbbing from all the squatting, shifting of objects, climbing of stairs. that they were literally jumping. i swear. JUMPING. yes my dear readers. its just below my crotch. we were supposed to skate/cycle actually. so literally i ended work at 4.30. travelled to redhill, clementi, then to my house. which was 5.45pm.(note: i was meeting the rest at 6pm.) so i literally ran into the bathroom, yes i RAN. and did a combo called 'bath-pee-brush teeth'. ONCE AGAIN YES MY DEAR READERS, ALL AT THE SAME TIME. so u cld imagine the toothbrush in my mouth, water showering from above, and pee at the same time. so damn cool lah -.- im not gonna do that in my whole life ever again, i only have 2 friggin hands and my mum taught me to hold my 'bludder' if i were to do business.(note: it sprays around like a hose with full blast on yet nobody holding it, sideways only though). then we went to IMM for dinner, without jassen. that dude had to leave early. to i dont know where. for i dont know what.

on the way to ARCADE!

*notices the two girls acting strange at the stairs.*

bwenda says: 'eh beanie my boobs pain.'

dongdong acted like he didnt hear.

beanie says: 'eh bludder bludder, piggyback me!!!.'

dongdong *thinks* oh chey they were piggyback-ing each other -.-'

beanie says: 'will he fall over if i jump on?!'

bwenda says: 'wont lah.'

dongdong *thinks again* -.- u're not 100kg beanie.

beanie *jumps on 1st try*

*slips down*

*jumps on 2nd try*

*sort of pulls dongdong's jeans down*

dongdong *thinks again again* 'any more tries, my pants will come off.'

dongdong *bends lower*

beanie *jumps again* 'SUCCESS!'

*carries her all the way to the arcade*

yes lah. and we walked all the way to IMM SUBWAY for dinner. -.- note: my last meal was at 12pm. so yea. im hungry. like super. so i bought a footlong sandwich (HURRAY NO MEATBALL MARINARA T.T). and bwenda. that pig. ate a ice cream. even though she knew she wasnt supposed to eat it. i was gonna take the ice cream and poke into her nose. like 3 times XD. $4.50 nia. i return u loh. just dont eat it yes? not when u're not supposed to. anyways. BEANIE AH BEANIE! u're not fat. in fact i think u've a good figure lah -.- stop being paranoid. the both of u. yes bwenda. u too. STOP THINKING. or else i will literally go kill myself already.(note: i hate ppl saying im fat).

end of day.

the fuggin videos.

CHILLI MARATHON!









NTUC. BEANIE BLUDDER EPISODE

beanie beanie beanie beanie beanie beanie!

HAHAHA BEANIE! CHECK OUT THE TITLE!

=D bludder bludder bludder bludder. -.- yes, yesterday was fun. we went to bwenda's hse in the morning. for me just to watch the girls put on makeup. its just amazing lah, how they're willing to approach their eyes with a sissors looking like thingy. -.-' beanie actually suggested for me to do myself, right beanie rightttttt. anyways =/ girls put on makeup for the benefit of the guys lah. more eye pleasing -.-' i think. *looks at bwenda*. nah.. *shakes head* LOL.

so yea, we made our way to The Central, i swear. i didnt know such a shopping centre existed. and it was kinda classy @.@. so we went there, for what u know? make a guess lah make a guess.

bwenda says: 'lets go eat bread!'

dongdong+beanie says: 'heh?'

bwenda says: 'jap one that bread!!!'

dongdong+beanie says: '. . . . . .'

dongdong says: 'oh yea. both of u having ur periods soon yes'

beanie+bwenda says: '. . . . .'

bwenda yells: 'no you fucked up bitch!'

bwenda says: 'the bread is at central!a jap guy owns it'

dongdong says: 'cant we get those like at watson or guardian?'

end of story.

so..yea.. -.-' we made our way to 'The Central' to look for a shop which we do not know the name, nor the exact location. nor the decorations outside. so heres how it goes.

dongdong+beanie says: 'soooo, wheres the friggin shop?'

bwenda replies: 'central.'

dongdong+beanie says: 'hmm,which part?'

bwenda says: 'central lah.'

dongdong+beanie discusses: 'how do we kill her later at my house? i take big knife u take small?'

beanie laughs: 'wahaha okok.'

dongdong+beanie says: 'so u seen the outside of the shop mah?'

bwenda STILL says: 'central.'

TELL ME PPL TELL ME, SHOULD WE KILL HER ANOT? so yea -.- we went there, walked around The Central, just to not be able to find a shop which we do not know its name, do not know its exact location, do not know the decorations ouside. AND we ended up starving ourselves in the morning, AND ended up having pepper lunch.

(note: u guys do know there is an outlet at IMM yes?)

AFT pepper lunch, we actually went 'shopping' the blardee girls lied to me bout going town. *phew*

i m like the angel/devil side of their mind lah, i swear -.- im so evil. but actually, i sorta want them to be able to make their own decisions lah. -.- pity it doesnt work. their EQ is damn low i swear. then, we ended up cooking dinner at my house, cajun chicken+fries it was actually.

beanie says: 'LETS HAVE RICE!'

dongdong+bwenda: 'how?'

beanie yells: 'RICE!!!!!'

dongdong says: 'fine..rice..'

beanie yells: 'bludder bludder bludder bludder bludder!!FISH LUNCHEON MEAT!'

dongdong yells: 'dont yell in the NTUC LAH'

beanie yells: 'bludder bludder bludder bludder!!!!!!'

dongdong retaliates: 'beanie beanie beanie beanie beanie beanie beanie beanie!!!!'

bwenda happily watches the fight.

*cooking in progress*

i swear the fuggin oil. the fuggin oil. the fuggin oil!!!!! -.- nbccb keep spraying on my already sunburned arms. i was gonna flip the frying pan alr. then beanie wanted to watch

'The Last Stand.'

and my mum left the dvds i dno where. -.- so i had to search the house for it. AGAIN.

*aft the movie*

dongdong says: 'Prof X nvr die!'

beanie+bwenda says: 'no WHAT! jean killed him!'

dongdong says: 'dont believe watch the ending.'

*no fuggin ending after the dvd*

dongdong says: 'errrr..ok'

*dongdong explains*

the B sisters say: 'so WILL THERE BE A X-MEN 4!?

dongdong asks: 'then whats the friggin title gonna be?'

dongdong says: 'the last last stand?'

end of day

random.

i would use the time in the world, just to look at you.
love will flood my heart, let it be now.

when u smile, the world seems a much better place to live in.
the world alone is not enough, there would be nobody to watch the sunset without you.
till the end of time i would try, to have and hold whats dear to me.

the tiring days T.T

okie ppl -.- im here to blog. like finally, and i still havent figured out totally the template. W T F. and i keep asking bwenda for help =.= crap lah.

wahahaha i had great fun on tuesday. -.- though it was kinda dumb. fancy us getting all excited over thailand food. i swear, the most spicy crap i've taken in my life. BEANIE BEANIE! *bua chili oil on kangkong* NAH! EAT! EAT UP! XD and then we had a chilli competition, like me vs bwenda -.-'. we actually did that twice, dumb beanie didnt take the video. i hate u lah sister. however, bwenda was actually so psyched to eat it twice.(i swear, ive nvr seen her liddat) sooo~ we went NP in the morning, SP after that, then taka, then suntec, then esplanade. (/-.-)/ i nearly died, on tuesday. really. for ppl who knows me well -.- they all know i dun fancy travelling. be proud lah be proud, (claps). esplanade was a letdown though, it was fugging closed. bwenda, its all ur fault. i dont care XD but its ur fault. anyways XD lets try the taste of india.. like.. CHILI+CURRY! lub deep deep x 2(by bwenda and beanie).

anyways, ive been working like non stop everyday. friggin bungalow -.- (note: its 3 storeys high with a mosquitoe infected swimming pool). just to do a little something for someone =/ dumb yes i know -.- no choice~ i prefer the money without guilt(taking from my dad). so yea, it has been sun in the morning, rain in the afternoon, then sun again. say HI to fever. however, i had fun lah -.- i really admire my dad lah, so gay. he worked for 4 days consecutive without any complaints, but he said he was used to it. sooo... -.-' now i know how he fed me grow up since i was young. but still.. the fuggin sun #$%!@#$$#%. im gonna peel soon, very soon. -.- and someone didnt even 'sayang' me like she said she would. she basically just scratched me, till i was EVEN redder than usual.

things just upset me lately, dumb things really. -.- i dont know what im thinking anymore, nor what im feeling. should i or should i not? thats the question. i could be the wolf that is reaching for the moon. or perhaps, alittle lesser than that.

she blushes, when you try.
if i would to be, it would be now.
its a letdown, when all u can do is wait.