muahahaha. yes people im back from the dead.
as my baby would claim. 'your blog is dying lah sayang.'
oh yessss. i heard from the teacher that the lectures.labs.
are almost OVER.
which means. i am supposed to not come sch most of the time next week.
however though, i had quite a fun time there.
despite the early rousing from my dreams.(which are usually sweet)
and the long journey from home to school.(please god damn 185)
then the walk to my block.(i have to admit. journey's shorter than baby)
alot of things came to realization the other day.
i had to stop the tears from flowing.
im afraid of departure. my mother.
she looked so weary when she spoke to me.
then it had dawned on me. i had never been a fillial son.
though they had said before. it was i who brought the family together.
i was rather desolated. from my family in the past.
and them, from one another.
my brother had never been home.
my parents were constantly arguing, with knives and choppers.
my sister was also living in her own world.
i swear, the one of the many memories of me to her were.
my dad had went into her room. and given her $50.
to ask her to go out to play.(in my time.$50 was alot).
around 1990s.
guess her reaction. she had cried.
and continued peering into her book as though her life depended on it.
we werent a wealthy family at that time.
it didnt help. with the constant arguements among my parents.
i had stood there. transfixed. apparently not knowing what to do.
they had constantly quarrelled about divorce.
the only bond between the family.
my brother would desert the family.
my sister would marry.
and me. who would i be with?
those days were past. and im now older. stronger.
and i want to protect things that are important.
you may have the world. but you shall not take this fragment from me.
muahahaha enough of emo-ing about the past.
though im 100% confirmed baby would nag at me.
baby says: 'emo again?!'
and then.
'EmO rIghT?!'
'eeeuuuuu eMoO!'
it is silly. but these little things she do. always tugs me back onto earth.
into the present. looking into the future.
i love her.
more than i could imagine.
alittle less than what my heart could hold.
and it would grow straight into it.
nevertheless. i'll be by her side.
it is how it is. and i have no means of changing how i feel.
and then! on to what happened on Tuesday!
We went to Tangs.
which I could practically imagine how she looked like working there.
and then i saw it.
i fugging saw it.
at benefit's counter. though i dont mention what.
im not really biased. just not used to seeing stuff like that.
she got her pay.
and we set off to Far East.
i kinda miss the days we shop there lah.
BEANIE!
when the fug are u going to be free again?!
she wanted to get a long skirt.
i swear. once again imagination came into play.
and i could imagine her wearing a long skirt.
with those kinda silky material.
somehow.
it was sexy.
and it somehow turned me XD.
so i was kinda looking forward for it.
instead. baby. like her usual self.
picked out 2 dresses instead.
one which she liked.
another which we coincidentally saw.
i swear. the 2nd dress. was. mouthwatering lah guys.
jealous RIGHT! im her bf! XD
*happily jumps around*
i dunno why -.-' but i think im starting to get used to guys staring at her ass.
and guys coming to flirt on her.
then. she. despite herself. overspent her money.
i was happy to get her a beanie though.
she liked it alot too. probably because i said she looked like an elf in it.
the more i look at things. the more adorable she seemed.
it was ever changing though.
she could be haughty. constant bursts of violence sometimes.
yet.
she could be adorable, loving and caring most of the time.
that made it somehow balanced.
i swear. if she wore the dress and beanie.
she would be a killer.
well at least to me. though she kept claiming it would look weird in public.
i got one similar beanie myself. to prepare for NS.(scowls)
then on wednesday.
i picked her up from school.
then. off to Holland Village.
Coldrock.
OMG. it is nice.
and.
its fattening.
i swore, the nutrition facts on the cup went like.
Calories: dont bother knowing.
Saturated Fat: who cares?
even after 2 days of the sinful indulgence.
i could still feel the ice cream in me.
then we went to crystal jade.
to eat xiao long bao. her craving lah her craving.
and we all know when her craving comes. what does it mean.
despite her protests of not going crystal jade just to eat dim sum.
she gave in at last. due to me dragging her from the front.
be glad lah be glad. i was broke already on that day.
i still didnt mind spending money to make her happy.
in the end however. i was full from the meal.
though i knew it wouldnt last -.-'.
then off we went, to somewhere near her house.
then around night time. i starved.
zzzz brother, his girlfriend was abroad.
my parents were asleep.
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