the beautifully imperfect her.

YAY.

met up with weilin and joe at first.

then spent the day at coffee bean.

not bad. actually. even though we've been doing nothing.

but i feel slightly more alive again.

perhaps i just wasnt looking hard enough.

because somehow. i feel like the old me again.

had fun teasing weilin.

then.

dinner at swensen's.

my treat. (includes joe, i dno why.) HAHAHA j/k

-.- yes i know i've owned u for half a year already weilin.

debt cleared.

sigh. a pity i do not have a camera phone.

finally caught wolverine. like finally.

HAHAHA.

with joe. and amelia.

tomorrow is mother's day.

speaking of which. amelia's turning into a mother.

-.- scary. in a way.

how others change so fast.

lunch tomorrow with my family.

though my dad wouldnt be free.

im bringing joe!

well. sort of like.

i treat him as part of my family too.

because he is.

thats what i think.

besides. it'd be good if he could treat my mum like his.

i was there when his mother passed away.

well. i sort of saw the process. more like.

i think.

nah it wont be weird dude.

just come along.

i dno why. but i feel better.

maybe its due to the jog early in the morning.

-.-' yes people. i know u're feeling surprised.

me too.

suddenly. i feel like doing alot of things.

should i get a driving license? =/

like maybe schedule the lessons on saturdays.

then i'm gonna go on a holiday. like real soon.

most probably just gonna grab a random someone.

-.-' brother? cmi. mother. maybe. lover. definitely. joe? only if he has the money.

anyhow. tomorrow's gonna be meaningful day.

note: if it all goes well. and joe can wake up.

btw. i'm getting a jab tomorrow.

-.-' a vaccination of some sort.

no. not for rabies. im not contracted.

no. not for AIDS either. theres no cure to that.

but yea. for STDs. -.-'

my mother said: just incase.

$200 for a jab. wtf.

needles. im so excited.

sigh.

its the 10th. i wish u would be here.

at least. with my family tomorrow.

u were beautifully imperfect.

funny. because it is all the small things that i remember.

every little detail.

how u used to whine when i rouse u from sleep.

how u'd smile when i appear outside your house.

how i'd try doing small little things just to cheer u up.

then time stops.

and now i cant fall asleep.

the choice.

opps.

mother's day is coming.
errr.
-.-' what to get.
nah nvm. i'll decide tomorrow.
*comes home*
dad says: eh. u look so nua.
*pats myself*
pat says: O.O where!?
yea. -.- awesome randomness on the car.
oh yea. and we changed our vehicle.
so theres basically. a van. and a family car in our house now.
zzzz. i don't know where that came from.

anyhow. i've been round and about nowadays.
in camp. again.
not exactly lifeless.
but somehow. it just seems alittle less enjoyable than it was in the past.
in a way.
they said i'm having meno pause. =.=
up and down moods.
one moment i'll be high and laughing like mad.
next minute i'll be sitting there quietly.
i'm not snobbish and ignoring u guys lah. wtf.
i'm just deep in thought.
about what to do for my future.
and where i'm headed to tomorrow.
i've to keep myself busy. though its nearly impossible on weekends.
but im trying.

had bbq today.
so quickly time passes.
and its gonna be my POP again.
well. really. fast.
in a way.
another way however. it feels so long sometimes.

anyhow. its time for me to get a move on again.
at least. back to where the sun is.
no. not emo-ing.
just self reflecting.
just felt that i've wasted enough time.
and that its time to wake up.

make a choice. between what is right. and what is easy.
what is right today. may seem wrong tomorrow.
every night every night.
i still run the memories over and over in my head.

puzzle.

Before.


After.

AHHHHHHH.
i've got a wasted weekend on my hands.
though im literally content with staying at home.
but still. =.= i'm at a lost to what to do on weekends.
but its okay! i'll figure some hobby out soon.

its funny when i seem to have entered another stage of life, unwillingly.
some sort of vortex which sucked me in.
leaving behind my friends, my old self and my life.
a life which nobody would understand.
even if u did bother to explain.
this two years. isnt my time. nor its my choice.
but i'd never regret the time spent there.
things i've learnt. people i've seen. experience i've got.
basically. i can say that its the most meaningful thing i've done with my life.
yes. i know people would say i'm crazy.
they would all wanna. 'serve and fuck off.'
but the thing is.
i've done nothing with my life up till now.
to me. this is meaningful.
it's just about how you look at things.
so i'm gonna suck it up. like a man. XD

kexin~ cheer up yes? (:
it isn't that tough.
and nah. its not his decision.
its the both of you.
but u chose to leave the decision in his hands. thats all.

every piece of puzzle that does not fit.
gets you closer to the ones that do.
i still wish you the best in whatever you do.

Where're you?!

I'm missing you, too, baby!

just a little flavour. (:

a picture. with lots of flavour.

anyhow. yes people. im back!
no. i havent been blogging much.
yes. i've been lazy.
well. i'm sort of back to blog. before i've to go back to army on monday.
i've been doing nothing much basically.
though, somehow i'm rather enjoying the way my life is.
i've been out and around, with a couple of friends.
and alot has been happening.
well, not exactly to me. but around me.

yes. i'm still in love with my girl.
and no. sorry to disappoint the guys in the world. we're still together.
HAHAHA.
i keep wanting to do things, eg. movies, sentosa.
but i think i'm not really that disciplined to wake up that early in the morning.
besides. i am a rather homely boy.
or so i think, it depends on the mood.
and the company.
well. basically anything with her is fine.
i dont really care nor mind.
and -.-' with a twinge of guilt, i havent been spending much time with my parents.
but. i dont think they really care.
'as long as i'm happy.'
thats what they always say.

sometimes. somethings. are more important and greater than life itself.