dilly dally.

ahhhhh.

im bored. thus im here to blog.

its 1.59AM. and yet i cant fall asleep.

i've undertaken the job of 'admin' from my brother. to work for my dad.

which sort of irritates me and makes me glad at the same time.

thanks to the sudden calls from customers. i've to bring a slip of paper around.

and now, to my love life XD

which excites me everytime. i see her.

poor thing lah she.

having eye swellings yet again.

the weather sucks. i think thats why.

fuggin sun so big.

we had potato salad.

she wanted it. and she didnt finish it. *scowls*

it makes me wonder big time.

whether i really am such a great boyfriend.

i love her. thats 1 fact.

i don't know where this will go though. thats the 2nd.

i want her. though not for some makeout session. 3rd.

i'm not her type. -.- sadly.

hahahaha. though it doesnt bother me much.

another thing. however. is the fact i want to groom myself more.

because! thats what i've always wanted and dreamed of.

a nice body. yes lah. -.- just the body.

another point is for the discipline. and NS.*scowls x2*

she has a lot of males lah. after her ass. -.- i swear.

though i'm once again not really bothered.

but there would be some tom dick harry who would suddenly msg her saying.

dick says: 'hi, i want to make out with you.'

that infuriates me. not the fact that she's mine.

but the fact is that they would like to know her. just to makeout.

the fugged day.

wah lan. i swear lah. this is how the post should start.

'wah lan.'

had breakfast with baby today.

then headed over to marina square.

where we went back to get the roxy bag we saw yesterday.

she loves it.

then upon arriving at marina square.(note: we're both sweating.)

u know why lah sayang.

then we went to subway.(note: where a bunch of judes were staring at her.)

she had her lunch. and then off to quiksilver.

and guess what.

the bag is gone.

SOLD.

DISAPPEARED.

3 cheers of hip hip hurray!

i swear. i was gonna do a 'crouching lj du lan face.

the first salesgirl we asked had no idea how the bag looks like.

unreliable. so we thought we could ask the 2nd salesgirl.

then it was out of stock.

really no more.

ji tao horny.

then baby and me went like. 'ok, now what.'

today wasnt a good day for her.

she had bad hair day. but when she threatened to go saloon to cut it.

somehow. it went to the way she likes it.

amusing lah ppl. then next.

her eyes turned sore. just when we said we wanted to go tangs.

amazing lah ppl. then next.

she had a aching pain in her tummy area.

worried me for awhile.

so after that, we went to puma. ripcurl. everywhere.

to look for a suitable bag.

but in the end.

she bought a top instead.

omg lah. baby. ur wardrobe is bursting alr.

though i swear. she looks damn sexy.

in just a plain shorts, and a black top.

which she keeps saying she looks fat in.

sayang. u have curves lah.

curves that are concave do not mean u are fat.

i had to drag a salesgirl to convince her.

dongdong says: 'do u think she looks fat?'

salesgirl says: 'no. swear. no. never.'

ok i exaggerated the salesgirl part abit.

she has thighs that arent even touching each other!

WTF!?

though i have to admit. she is getting broader.

still. she would look good.

and damn. she does look good.

thus, which made me wanna do some self improvising.

as in. to start working out.

before she starts noticing im fat and dumps me. >=(

she likes. tall. tanned. handsome. playboy type.

-.- which im yearning to grow into.

though im short. pale. ugly. and positively. not playboy. LOL.

the day ended swift.

and i am now missing her greatly.

though she is now being a pigu. -.-

for not replying to me on msn.

BRENDA NG!

YOUR A PIG. BUT I LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP.

the suffering.

my heart goes out to those that suffered the earthquake.

my hope flows to those who are below the rubble, waiting for help.

the pain is shared, from the families who lost someone dear.

and last of all.

while you still have it. cherish it.

i look around.

muahahaha. yes people im back from the dead.

as my baby would claim. 'your blog is dying lah sayang.'

oh yessss. i heard from the teacher that the lectures.labs.

are almost OVER.

which means. i am supposed to not come sch most of the time next week.

however though, i had quite a fun time there.

despite the early rousing from my dreams.(which are usually sweet)

and the long journey from home to school.(please god damn 185)

then the walk to my block.(i have to admit. journey's shorter than baby)

alot of things came to realization the other day.

i had to stop the tears from flowing.

im afraid of departure. my mother.

she looked so weary when she spoke to me.

then it had dawned on me. i had never been a fillial son.

though they had said before. it was i who brought the family together.

i was rather desolated. from my family in the past.

and them, from one another.

my brother had never been home.

my parents were constantly arguing, with knives and choppers.

my sister was also living in her own world.

i swear, the one of the many memories of me to her were.

my dad had went into her room. and given her $50.

to ask her to go out to play.(in my time.$50 was alot).

around 1990s.

guess her reaction. she had cried.

and continued peering into her book as though her life depended on it.

we werent a wealthy family at that time.

it didnt help. with the constant arguements among my parents.

i had stood there. transfixed. apparently not knowing what to do.

they had constantly quarrelled about divorce.

the only bond between the family.

my brother would desert the family.

my sister would marry.

and me. who would i be with?

those days were past. and im now older. stronger.

and i want to protect things that are important.

you may have the world. but you shall not take this fragment from me.

muahahaha enough of emo-ing about the past.

though im 100% confirmed baby would nag at me.

baby says: 'emo again?!'

and then.

'EmO rIghT?!'

'eeeuuuuu eMoO!'

it is silly. but these little things she do. always tugs me back onto earth.

into the present. looking into the future.

i love her.

more than i could imagine.

alittle less than what my heart could hold.

and it would grow straight into it.

nevertheless. i'll be by her side.

it is how it is. and i have no means of changing how i feel.

and then! on to what happened on Tuesday!

We went to Tangs.

which I could practically imagine how she looked like working there.

and then i saw it.

i fugging saw it.

at benefit's counter. though i dont mention what.

im not really biased. just not used to seeing stuff like that.

she got her pay.

and we set off to Far East.

i kinda miss the days we shop there lah.

BEANIE!

when the fug are u going to be free again?!

she wanted to get a long skirt.

i swear. once again imagination came into play.

and i could imagine her wearing a long skirt.

with those kinda silky material.

somehow.

it was sexy.

and it somehow turned me XD.

so i was kinda looking forward for it.

instead. baby. like her usual self.

picked out 2 dresses instead.

one which she liked.

another which we coincidentally saw.

i swear. the 2nd dress. was. mouthwatering lah guys.

jealous RIGHT! im her bf! XD

*happily jumps around*

i dunno why -.-' but i think im starting to get used to guys staring at her ass.

and guys coming to flirt on her.

then. she. despite herself. overspent her money.

i was happy to get her a beanie though.

she liked it alot too. probably because i said she looked like an elf in it.

the more i look at things. the more adorable she seemed.

it was ever changing though.

she could be haughty. constant bursts of violence sometimes.

yet.

she could be adorable, loving and caring most of the time.

that made it somehow balanced.

i swear. if she wore the dress and beanie.

she would be a killer.

well at least to me. though she kept claiming it would look weird in public.

i got one similar beanie myself. to prepare for NS.(scowls)

then on wednesday.

i picked her up from school.

then. off to Holland Village.

Coldrock.

OMG. it is nice.

and.

its fattening.

i swore, the nutrition facts on the cup went like.

Calories: dont bother knowing.

Saturated Fat: who cares?

even after 2 days of the sinful indulgence.

i could still feel the ice cream in me.

then we went to crystal jade.

to eat xiao long bao. her craving lah her craving.

and we all know when her craving comes. what does it mean.

despite her protests of not going crystal jade just to eat dim sum.

she gave in at last. due to me dragging her from the front.

be glad lah be glad. i was broke already on that day.

i still didnt mind spending money to make her happy.

in the end however. i was full from the meal.

though i knew it wouldnt last -.-'.

then off we went, to somewhere near her house.

then around night time. i starved.

zzzz brother, his girlfriend was abroad.

my parents were asleep.

sleepy.

how do u stop a man from pestering you?

answer: stare at his crotch and laugh.

what do man consider a 7 course meal?

answer: a hotdog and a 6 pack of beer.

how do you lose 190 pounds of ugly fat instantly?

answer: get a divorce with him.

sian. i was bored. so i began reading on some online jokes.

i admit la i admit. i'm bored.

my teacher was screaming.

'OMG i finally get to see u.'

yes people. his the dude who pronounces global as 'grobral'.

as expected. they've already started on lab 3.

and i knew nothing bout the labs sia. absolutely nothing.

at one point. i was stuck.

so.

*raise hand*

dongdong says: 'teacher, lai.'

*teacher approaches dongdong*

dongdong says: 'how to set nat inside and outside.'

forgive me. its been 8 months since i configured a switch.

teacher explains.

dongdong listens.

teacher once again pronounces words with a L as R.

then he blamed me for not coming for the previous labs.

then for some weird reason.

he was stroking my arm.

yes people. he was stroking it up and down.

and sort of grabbing kind of stroke.

-.-

and for the rest of the lesson. i didnt bother to raise my hand alr.

yay. dongdong is smart. say yes.

as expected. baby is sick. again.

dunno what she doing sia nowadays. see lah see lah.

bio guys somemore. grow thing on eye alr. >=D

anyways, she has sensitive eyes. though ive no reason why.

i've only heard of sensitive skin and sensitive nose.

does that mean she can never watch porn -.-"?

so yea. now here i am. rotting in the library.

while my friend is laughing beside me at some dumb movie.

nua lah nua. lj lesson 1-3.

yet i've no choice but to attend. the blardee lecturer said she would give out tips today.

i dont think i'll be listening much.

my eyes can barely open already.

and then. once again. many thanks to xinyi. XD

for giving me some company and a listening ear.