again. the rantings.

I try and try again. to stop the yearn for the touch.

Living this life had been a torture. had it not been for her.

Over and over, i would dream of her. the nightmares banished.

Vanishing the pain i had, over the very mistakes i had made.

Everytime i try to close this circle. more and more i would spin.

Being myself isnt hard. but this cycle is like a neverending spiral.
Repeating and always coming. i feel lost and insecured.
Every explanation given, which i understand.
Nevertheless, i need to hold her tight. to tell her she is mine.
Dire to faults, i try and try again.
Anything i have, just take them all. so that i would never feel this pain again.

i run the circle.

im puzzled.

then. i begun running the circle.

040508!

the day began. with loads of love.

well. more like a silly thought on my side.

at 12.15am. i was on the bus to clementi.

i had rushed to macdonald's. then to westmall's.

just to get her a little of something.

the opera diva which she wasnt able to have. cause i was unwell.

and three blue roses. from the mall.

and at 11am. sharp ok sharp. i reached there at 11am.

i had my best-est breakfast. woot. im amused.(amazed actually)

please tell me she is amazing.

cause i found her so. hahahaha.

i think she's hinting for me to go on a diet.

look at the amount of breakfast. -.- hmm.

though i had to constantly pinch myself to make sure i wasnt dreaming.

RIGHT SAYANG?!

however, she said im the only one to ever taste her breakfast.

yay. im honored. really. *bats eyelids*

and i know what u wanna say sayang.

but. my reply will be. nooooo i never!

and after the lovely breakfast.

yes lah. the singapore zoo.

please. tell me im amazing.

it consisted of alot of things i dislike.

the smell, the sun, the shit. stuff that starts with an S.

i wouldnt go to the zoo ever. even if someone forced a knife to my throat.

amazing lah. what this girl can make me do. though i was the one who suggested it.

i wanted it to be something special at least. >=D

yes people. thats the zoo map.

she wiped her sweat on her arms with it.

lovely glam gf. HAHAHAHA.

though i swear i didnt mind. her sticky or not.

no wonder she wasnt sticky one bit.

i swear. the map was a foggy piece by the end of the day.

yes lah people. the 6 pac turtle.

brenda says: 'omg see got 6 pac! *hint hint*'

dongdong says: 'thats the friggin shell lah.'

brenda says: 'nooooo. 6 pac!'

dongdong says: '. . . . . .'

*it goes on and on and on*

HAHAHAHA. she said it looks dead though.

the uber big tortoise.

fark la. its the biggest i ever seen. i thought it was a statue.

until she tugged my shirt and point.

it weighs 300+ kg btw.

the very cute otters. omg.

they travelled in packs of 5 though.

and there was this mother otter dragging her kids.

into the pool. -.- like suffocating it.

the funny looking bird. (note: its half aslp)
i swear. it looks like me when i daze in class.

muahaha! us!

i swear. i got to stop making those kinda faces when i take pictures.

i swear she looks pretty here.

no people. its not cause she covered her face.

its her hair lah her hair.

and she looks kinda secretive here.

yes lah people once again. its pizza.

remember dynamite?! this is the cousin.

the pizza tok gong-ly hard. really. i nearly broke my teeth.

and guess what. once again. sayang picked what to eat.

and guess what! kfc was beginning to seem friendly. like very.

so the day ended beautifully. i swear.

i enjoyed myself. i hope she has.

though it was nothing special.

but no matter where. or what. she never fails to bring a smile.

040408!

kzy,beanie,dongdong,brenda.

and after the episode at NYDC.

comes the pain of the aftermath.

the chilli shitting day! YAY!

i woke up.

brush teeth.

bath.

and then.

brother says: 'eh dongdong ah. i bought u mee-siam for breakfast.'

dongdong says: 'orh ok.'

dongdong approaches the table.

*sits*

*eats*

halfway through the meal.

omfg.

whats this feeling.

whats this rumbling sound i hear from my stomach.

omg.

i think i remember.

yesterday's dynamite pizza.

omfg.

*rushes to the toilet*

please. dear god. lets this be smooth and painless.

instead.

*pi li piak lak pi li piak lak*

whats this weird burning sensation at my asshole?

its alien @.@.

omg.

w t f!?

*wipes*

WTF WHY GOT BLOOD!?

*cries*

*continues eating mee-siam*

lovely brother. lovely timing. lovely mee-siam.

so in the end. i left house at 9.30am.

then. we forgo k lunch.

and had pizza hut instead.

guess what.

my beloved girlfriend.

popped this question suddenly in the middle of the meal.

brenda says: 'so are we still going k lunch later?'

dongdong looks at beanie.

beanie looks at dongdong.

dongdong and beanie looks at brenda.

*starts burst out laughing*

that cheered me up.

-.- cause i was feeling slightly moody.

lj tummy ache.

lj burning sensation at my asshole.

and lj waitress who forgot our orders.

and ignored us for approximately 5 minutes.

i swear. her eyes were avoiding us.

then it was off to big bookshop.

lovely sista said i needed pri 1 book.

lovely girlfren said i needed pri 5 assessment book.

lovely sista. lovely girlfriend.

yay.

then i saw this interesting book on chinese religion.

its amusing. i can still remember everything i learnt.

i can even recite verses. or sutras in my heart.

funny thing. i guess my fate with these kinda stuff isnt up.

so we rotted at kfc. waiting for kzy to appear later.

then it was off to holland V!

kzy's first statement of the day.

kzy says: 'eh today the weather very cold.'

*looks at beanie*

she had her jacket on.

HAHAHAHA.

again.

once we arrived at Holland V.

overhead bridge.

kzy strikes again.

kzy says: 'eh. SP people damn scared cold right.'

HAHAHAHAHA.

i swear la i swear.

then it was off to starbucks~

we couldnt find any seats.

and i felt like shit.

no. literally. didnt know whether i wanted to shit or not.

my stomach didnt give me a nature call's sign.

nor did i bother giving it the. 'let me sit on the toilet bowl till it comes.'

so i felt high, out of place, hot, annoyed, happy, irritated, horny.

all at the same time.

then. while beanie and sayang was fiddling with their laptops.

beanie was drawing a penis on her program.

i swear.

that.

is.

a.

fugging.

penis.

sista. deprived la sista.

HAHAHAHA.

it was beach in color. human skin color.

and it had weird lumps. and a pointy spot.

i figured it was a penis.

-.- confirm lah confirm. even kzy agrees with me.

after i was done with the iced signature chocolate.

i felt like i was ready to puke, pee and shit at the same time.

i was literally full. to the max. full.

but instead of resting and waiting to digest.

we ran off to Crystal Jade.

we ordered the funny chicken.

sweet and sour pork/chicken. i really have no idea.

and the beansprout salty thing.

and xiao long bao.

it was nice. really.

but i think the sweet and sour chicken/pork had some needs on improvement.

-.- it seemed alittle too large. and. too much pepper. too little meat.

me and kzy stuffed beanie and sayang with loads of food.

until when kzy tried to put a piece of sweet/sour pork on my bowl.

he toppled my drink.

and straight into the funny chicken.

i stunned. for at least 3 seconds.

before realizing the chicken was drowning.

literally drowning.

-.- zhanyu ah zhanyu.

*flares eyes, nosrils together*

dont lah dont.

i had some fun being the clown at crystal jade though.

im glad they all laughed. -.-'

im happy lah. when i see people happy.

im a weird guy.

but im that way.

and then! aft crystal jade.

dongdong whines: 'i wanna puke,pee,shit.'

all at the same time please.

reminds me of the, pee,brush teeth and wash hair combo.

i wanted to take a cab. i really wasnt feeling well.

so i really was sweating like fug.

though after awhile.

i felt fine again. and we slacked at the playground.

i managed to convince beanie's mother to let her to stay with us at the playground.

WEE! JERALDINE WEE!

HAHAHAHA.

sista. just admit it la. u would wish that im ur blood brother.

i dote on u yes? XD

though we left.

after some dramatic displays of splits and dances.

by the 3 of them.

then. after sending sayang home.

kzy and me sat somewhere to have a chat.

it was nice really. to know more about them.

im just surprised. how everyone misunderstands one another so easily.

relationships are fragile.

so is life.

so im cherishing this as much as i can.

cherishing her.

loving her.

i'll try my bestest.though there is no such word LOL.

she is finding it hard to express herself.

she had forgotten how to love.

how to care.

how to trust.

i love her.

all the same.

im shitting chilli seeds.

yay im back! back to blog la.

beloved didnt want me to wait for her. so she wants me to blog. -.- loving right this bf.

HAHAHAHAHA.

30th of Apr was alright.

guess what.

she ended class at 7.

and as for me. i was waiting for a bus to clementi since say. 6.20pm.

the bus arrived at 6.45pm.

i waited till very horny i swear. i paced around the bus stop. tapping my foot.

worst thing was. traffic jam on the highway to clementi.

another thing to make me horny for the day.

-.- swear la swear.

then. i arrived at clementi bus interchange.

guess what.

sayang took 184. despite trying to wait for 154,52. she skipped 184 once.

then she boarded 184. with 154 behind. SMART RIGHT!?

so in the end. she still had to take the liberty of walking.

no choice la =x fated. HAHAHA. sayang. it was fats shredding day.

anyway. she didnt wanted me to wait. so i think she got kind of agitated for the bus oso.

AND THEN!

tragic thing happened really.

bus 7 departed while she was on 184 whining.

then bus 7 departed AGAIN. when she was crossing the junctions towards bus interchange.

yes la. double horny attack.

so. ON TO NYDC!

NOTE NOTE NOTE NOTE NOTE. DANGER!

she ordered. Dynamite(it sounds dangerous, explosive. and worse.spicy)

the description said. It is so hot and spicy! our staff itself loves it! with FRESH CHILLIsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

note the long long chilli word.

i ordered. the 3 Amigos(it sounds friendly, warm. and delicious)

our food arrived.

i swear. the pizza looked so damn innocent. with nothing more than afew chopped chillis on it.

then.

the first bite.

brenda says: '. . . . . .'

dongdong says: 'wassa matter?'

*brenda takes drink and gulps*

brenda says: 'wtf spicy.'

dongdong notices something. her face just turned red la. tomato color.

dongdong geh kiang.

dongdong says: 'i'll eat urs. u take mine.'

*pours cheese and tabasco sauce on the pizza*

i swear. it made the pizza a whole lot more edible.

*removes the cheese layer.*

WTF IS UP WITH THIS HUNDRED CHILLI SEEDS?

and so.

i tried to finish all of it. mama taught me dont waste food la.

so basically. my face turned red. my throat burnt.

i swear. if i could give out smoke. i would be a steaming train.

REALLY A VERY HORNY DAY.

i tried to open my mouth to talk.

but once oxygen got into my mouth.

the pain got worse.

and then. after dinner.

my tummy was struggling.

like literally struggling.

stomach acids versus chilli.

then to my dismay.

sayang was laughing -.-.

i love you lah baby. literally wanna lub u deep deep LOL.