she gave up. i'm giving up.
she loved me. i love her.
she protected me. and now it would be my turn.
im hurting her. if this continues on.
if i keep telling her. how much i love her.
so i will stop. she now. calls me by my name.
im no longer baby. no longer her love one.
im not hurt. im sad. that it ended this way.
when i thought it would be. it ended this way.
it is not about the status. but the drifting away.
i dont understand. when i accepted everything.
yet she still insists that she is hurting me.
the only pain in my heart. ever will be.
is because, she is not standing by me.
we are no longer fighting together.
but she does not understand. and i will not probe.
i wish her well. from the very bottom of my heart.
and i'm keeping this very fragment. as a treasured possession.
the most treasured. for i truely love her.
and accepted her for who she was.
the only thing i had wanted. was for us to be happy.
and we were happy. until it happened.
how many would understand me? i wonder.
i keep hoping and hoping, she would fight on.
lastly. brenda ng.
i love you. truely. madly. deeply.
the skies are not vast enough for my heart.
the oceans are not deeper than my love.
so. do not cry. because u know im still waiting.
it is of the willing. i am. willing.
it is. this love. that is troubling her.
im now causing her pain. so im drifting.
not because i do not want her.
but because. she does not want me.
she is tired of this. she said.
she might not reply anytime soon. she said.
perhaps, she doesnt love me that much. after all.
not enough to overcome this obstacle.
not enough to ride the storms and survive it.
not enough. to last till the golden rays of sunlight shining on us.
the days with her. are the happiest. of my life.
not one bit of regret. not one bit of pain.
she could easily brush the dust off my shoulders.
and we would try again.
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