it somehow seems. i miss her terribly.
and its feeling terrible to not be able to see her.
having talks with her.
about issues. and what we had planned to do.
triggered some memories in me.
it somehow feels damn far now.
maybe it might be too late if this drags on.
im feeling despair.
i have no idea why.
and we would drift apart soon.
would she give up again in the future?
like how she had done.
without me even knowing. we were apart already.
with the difficulties between us.
yet im struggling. this pain. really feels right.
when you know you love each other.
and would pounce on one another, once you have the chance.
it feels different. it feels. like a test. to our love.
but then again, whether we survive this.
or we let it leave a gap between us.
is entirely. up to her.
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