the gym day.

woke up at 10.30am. thanks to my parents' calls.

ehhhh. arrived at school at 1.30pm.

HAHAHAHA. say i zai lah quick.

but i still took the attendance. and the class was.. empty.

omfg. why did i even bother to go.

was sitting in class stoning with a couple of the classmates.

then i borrowed one of their mp3.

and it had a couple of songs i always sang.

so begun listening. -.- then.

i didnt realise something. while i was listening. thoughts ran wild.

then i actually started singing in class.

note: i had both the earpieces on.

so i didnt really know. until my fren tapped me on the shoulder.

u sing well sia. but. teacher looking at u.

ok that shut me up and made me hide my face on the table.

realised i had my student card still somewhere at BA office.

then i started sms-ing people.

egg, raymond, calvin, joe, camen, jassen. xander. u name it.

and the only 2 people i know studying at business school is.

brenda. and weilin.

camen is at the market with hudson and the rest. eating.

joe is at home, most prob cuddling his girlfriend. bless him.

raymond is going out soon, lesson ends at 3. same time as me.

calvin ends at 5. he cant accompany me to BA office.

jassen isnt in school.

xander's lesson ended at 12. and his home.

so, forced weilin to go with me. -.- literally forced.

cause i felt weird. doing stuff on my own.

and being alone. well. u'll get alot of alone thoughts.

went up to the office, got the card.

went to canteen 1 to have something to eat.

then waited for calvin, cause that dude ends at 5.

and im going to gym with him.

so slacked with weilin at library.

as i had nth to do, i read the cards for her.

was supposed to do it for tryphena. but she last minute. zz.

yay. true again. only she would know though.

but everytime i tell her of a specific person. she says she know who.

bless you lah. u've had a tough relationship going.

ulfred ah ulfred. u need to buck up abit. -.-

and she begun telling me about her ex.

enduring 2 years of hardship caused by her parents.

and in the end, only a sour relationship with her ex bf.

he actually ran off with another girl. fucker.

nth i could do about though.

just asked her to pick her next one carefully.

then met up with calvin. to head to alumni's gym at first.

but the entrance for guest is $5.

ouch. so we changed to CCK gym instead.

i swear. my first time in a gym.

im amazed lah amazed. and now.

my arms, chest and stomach is aching.

fuck u calvin.

anyway. there are alot of funny people in the gym.

-.-' really funny.

there is one. who raises weight. and moans each time he reaches the top.

and one uncle. i swear. we were queuing for the situp machine.

that dude happily waste his time. by doing 10kg. and not really sitting up.

i mean. he looks like he is jerking off on the machine.

then after he was done. like 10 mins later.

he did smth funny. that made me ring the whole gym with laughter.

ehhh. he held each end of the towel with his hand.

placed it around himself behind, and below his armpit.

and started rubbing it left and right.

i think. he thought. that was some kind of exercise oso.

then now im home. after a long ride of 187.

just sitting by that window. listening to songs on my phone.

over and over. and just dazing.

funny. i thought i've recovered.

still. i hadnt wanted to.. but its ok.

i saw that wall around her today. she's happy.

rachel just talked to me -.-'

Rachel - *kicks* my new hobby says:
pardon me for saying this
Rachel - *kicks* my new hobby says:
but both u and her keeps thinking both of u are going on fine
Rachel - *kicks* my new hobby says:
u think she's happy
Rachel - *kicks* my new hobby says:
she thinks u're happy
Rachel - *kicks* my new hobby says:
u think she's happy with her frens
.moonchild. says:
hmm
Rachel - *kicks* my new hobby says:
she thinks u're happy with ur frens
Rachel - *kicks* my new hobby says:
thats what i see

i dont know if it made sense.

but no. im not happy.

and all i want to do. is be with her.

and right now. im reading the ms word doc. she sent me on 14th april.

frankly. my life has been a joke.

until she appeared.

now that she's gone. its back to a joke.