yes. woke up at 8.30am today.
to head out with my family. -.-' to see some guru.
i swear. she's more like a psychiatrist.
she lives in a house somewhere near Holland V.
her house is VERY comfortable i swear.
quiet, peaceful.
she can tell your character, future by touching ur hand/bone structure.
i was very tired lah. so damn lazy to style my hair. slept at 5am.
so i wore the beanie. and headed off with my dad, mum and bro.
my mum went first, cause she was the eldest.
and we were forbidden to hear.
but after the conversation with the lady, my mum actually cried.
amazingggggg. -.- she made my mother cry.
dongdong says: EH WHY U CRY?!
mum says: she really is 1 needle poke heart.
dongdong says: everything she said is true?
mum says: yeap.
though she didnt tell me what the lady told her.
but i was sure, it wasnt good news.
next was my brother.
he had loads of good news. swear.
the lady told him that he would get engaged during october.
and get married in 2010.
he would own a car, a house. all by himself.
looking at him now, i really cant consider those odds. LOL.
really sia. just yesterday i remember myself in pri sch, he in poly.
and today. they're all getting married.
both my brother and my sister.
then next up, was me.
i swear. to god. i was smiling the whole time. and laughing with my parents.
but when i sat down.
she told me to give her my left hand.
once she touched my fourth finger(the one where u wear an engagement ring).
she asked me in a damn straight face.
lady says: are you depressed?
i swear, that wiped the smile off my face. clean clean.
then i was like. ehhhh. ya. though not really anymore.
lady says: why are you depressed?
dongdong mumbles: the usual.
lady says: whats yours is yours.
dongdong says: yeap. i know.
lady asks: do you feel anger?
dongdong says: nope. at myself, maybe.
lady asks: what was the reason for the parting?
dongdong says: it started with her parents. then, it became us. stopped trying.
lady says: do u hate her parents?
dongdong says: nope. -.-' (why the fuck everything hate hate hate?)
i dont know why. talking to her really made me feel a whole damn lot better.
it was like a knot in my heart. and she just untied it.
at her first question. are you depressed?
i was gonna cry. i swear. she is that magical.
then she told me to stop pursuing for it.
because it would only worsen everything. which i guess she's right.
then she went on about my education.
she told me i could do damn well, if i put my heart into it.
and she told me to pick up musical stuff.
she claimed. i was artistic. good with colors, and music.
i told her, yea i have a mold growing guitar at home.
then she asked me to go pick up lessons.
and. then. out of a sudden. -.-'
lady says: u have dental problem.
dongdong says: omg?! how u know?
lady says: by touching ur bones obviously.
true. i have a chip in my molar.
due to some hard hard thing in the food i ate long time ago.
and she asked me to fix it.
and that i wouldnt have to bother about my relationship problems.
she said. the right one will show up, one day.
and everything was to be.
it is just that whether i would make the best, or worse out of it.
that gave me alot of courage to move on.
really lah really. so im finally over it.
it was a precious memory. and i've torn it off the wall.
i did try. at least i tried. and im glad i did.
so as long as she was happy. i'll be happy.
she doesnt need me to stay. really.
she knows it, i know it.
falling in love was precious. with her.
and i've not regretted it one bit.
what was most regrettable though, was me being stubborn.
maybe love really doesnt have to be. nor needs to be.
i dont need to have her. as long as she's fine.
and i'll be ok. afterall, im well known to be flirtatious.
if she has found someone, please. bless her.
if she hasnt, still. please. bless her. =)))
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